In an effort to remain anonymous, I created a completely new email account and passwords for this site. Unfortunately this meant that I promptly forgot my log in name! Amazingly, after about 3 months of thinking I would never be able to log on again- the name just came to me. Thankfully. I have no idea what triggered my brain to remember, but here I am again- no longer lost!
Tomorrow is a huge day for me. I am moving to another city nearby where I will be close to work, my boyfriend and some friends. I say "some" all of my closest friends still live at least an hour away :(
I've still been plagued by anxiety, especially about the move- even though I know I'll be much happier there. I haven't packed a fucking thing yet. PROCRASTINATION!
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Looking back
There are many entries I would like to share from my paper journal from months or years back. I'll have to figure out how to incorporate these.
I'm feeling lazy right now though.
I'm disappointed that I'm not experiencing the great "honeymoon" phase of Wellbutrin. The kick in the pants and rapid weight loss. I don't think the nurse directed me to take a high enough dose. I dread seeing a counselor but it looks like the only way to continue with meds without paying a doctor- I'll have access to student health services for a few more months, might as well take advantage of it.
I'm feeling lazy right now though.
I'm disappointed that I'm not experiencing the great "honeymoon" phase of Wellbutrin. The kick in the pants and rapid weight loss. I don't think the nurse directed me to take a high enough dose. I dread seeing a counselor but it looks like the only way to continue with meds without paying a doctor- I'll have access to student health services for a few more months, might as well take advantage of it.
Friday, April 30, 2010
First day of meds
I made an appointment yesterday, in desperation to find some relief from my depression and anxiety. This morning I met with the nurse at Student Health Services and "renewed" my prescription for Wellbutrin. The first dose has left me feeling a little spacey and dizzy but I think it will be a short term side effect. Long term, I hope it will help me continue trying to achieve a healthier lifestyle and continued weight loss. I've got about 50 pounds to go. Fifty pounds to be back at my pre-failed-live-in-boyfriend experience.
As early as age 18 I knew I have had depression. At that time I lived in an apartment with my best friend/roommate. My boyfriend still lived at home though and wasn't allowed to stay with me. When he left at night I'd watch his truck drive away until I couldn't see it anymore... and cry, alone, in front of the window.
As early as age 18 I knew I have had depression. At that time I lived in an apartment with my best friend/roommate. My boyfriend still lived at home though and wasn't allowed to stay with me. When he left at night I'd watch his truck drive away until I couldn't see it anymore... and cry, alone, in front of the window.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Number 1
In an attempt to combat my depression I've begun keeping a paper journal. Writing helps relieve some anxiety and brings sleep on occasion. Through the wonders of Google, I found a blog on this site that I could really relate to and decided to start my own.
Though I wish to remain anonymous- the need to voice my troubles and daily tribulations (as dull as they often are) in some form feels important. Especially since I do not wish to discuss these things with a counselor.
So, here it is- for what it's worth.
Though I wish to remain anonymous- the need to voice my troubles and daily tribulations (as dull as they often are) in some form feels important. Especially since I do not wish to discuss these things with a counselor.
So, here it is- for what it's worth.
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