I made an appointment yesterday, in desperation to find some relief from my depression and anxiety. This morning I met with the nurse at Student Health Services and "renewed" my prescription for Wellbutrin. The first dose has left me feeling a little spacey and dizzy but I think it will be a short term side effect. Long term, I hope it will help me continue trying to achieve a healthier lifestyle and continued weight loss. I've got about 50 pounds to go. Fifty pounds to be back at my pre-failed-live-in-boyfriend experience.
As early as age 18 I knew I have had depression. At that time I lived in an apartment with my best friend/roommate. My boyfriend still lived at home though and wasn't allowed to stay with me. When he left at night I'd watch his truck drive away until I couldn't see it anymore... and cry, alone, in front of the window.
Hey Akasha, good luck with the meds. Sometimes it takes a long time for them to kick in, or for you to find the right dosage/combination. I know when I was on Wellbutrin I had the most crippling anxiety for the first couple of weeks and then it all settled down. It was kind of scary that I got worse before I got better.
ReplyDeleteI hope you find your way back to the person you were before the wayward relationship. I know it can be a difficult journey, but I wish you the best of luck. Keep writing, it really helps.
~ Jane
Thanks! I read this months ago, but had no way to reply since I'd forgotten my username.
ReplyDeleteI never followed up with the next appointment so I'm out of meds now. They helped tremendously though. I can tell I should still be taking them but, you know.. I procrastinate. Going back to the doctor is something I really need to do.